How do i handle the fact ive aged badly due to life stress & dont look the part anymore?
plus i have physical imperfections, and injured ankle, i sprained it a year ago, had a diagnostic operation, discover that i have laxed, stretched tendons , have to go back in 2 weeks for the results and the next stage , have a feeling their not doing surgery now , my ankles very weak and i have to watch how i walk on it, can easily go over and twist it.
i have an average small penis only 5 inch when erect, not thick in girth either, i only discovered this fact since ive had the internet for 3 years and ive been able to see factual photos and info about guys manhoods, it also has a small head on my manhood not big or broad like most other guys.
i have 2 missing teeth, front, bottom row due to an accident years back.
im balding so my heads shaved short but im not bald.
im 31 multiracial, but i look like an aging white man, i have olive skin slightly, bad pigmentation , open pores , deep frown lines , dark lines under my eyes…..my face looks haggard sometimes and i feel i could easily pass for 41 years old instead.
ive had a hard life, missed out on everything people take for granted — building relationships – being employed , getting qualifications , none of it ever happened yet.
i live with personality disorder and post traumatic stress, rage, aggression problems , agoraphobia , bad anxiety, but im committed to chasing help and have been for years , even though the therapy i want is not available in my area because of crap resources ( one on one psychotherapy )
i have a criminal past going back 7 years ago.
my only goal left in life is to attain a job in IT computers then to move abroad, leave england.
i was once a cute adolescant, a handsome youthful person, a vain perfectionist mentally to.
how can i handle the way lifes dramatically altered my looks ?
Man.. I’m you’ve had it hard. I’m feel sorry for you(not like "pity" but more, like, admiration for your strenght. The fact that you still stand tall.)
I’ve not a real answer for you(i don’t think there is one, really) but for your altered looks; beauty accessories. No, it’s not for sissies. And maybie when you get the job you want you will have money enough for plastic surjery? Btw, i don’t like spiders either, i have social anxiety to, i have been in clinical major depressions 2 times and i’m only 16 and i have no real friends that i can hang out with whatsoever. So.. I guess you’re not alone. I will probably have a darn shitty life aswell. But was your life really "darn shitty"? Think about it. I mean, yes, that’s the way you described it. As "darn shitty".. But… Think of the good sides. Really.
I know, it’s a weak and pathetic excuse for an incomplete answer but still. I tried 
. Oh man, i wish there was some way i could help you, though.. Maaan life sucks and "god" hates each and every one of us.
